hi!!! i1m so happy to enter your diary!!!!!
it`s Kate-Koteno4ek! I`m in Malta now! Happy to se you`re ok and found your love! Be with it always! I also would like to my love, to find it and never let go away! I`m dreaming now about one person, but I`m afraid, that maybe... oh, I just don`t like to think like this!!!!!!! but can you help me, how can I anderstand his feelings, it is so difficult, because they are to different...
he is not my tipe of men. I fought like this, always. But now I can`t` understand anything, cause I`m ALWAYS thinking about him, and can`t remember (and don`t want) those men that I was always `loving`! So I`m lost and don`t now even what to think.
Help me please.

I met him in Russia. Saw him two times. First I fought that he`s not my type...but it will be interesting to make something between us, cause our mothers nows each ather for many many years, and it will be like...soupe opera))))) but really... now I fink, I fought like this only BEFORE seen him. Then I thought, that he`s not my type, but it may be an interesting situation, but not in my life, because it is not a play.
But I was interested by him!
Insted of talking to him I (can`t explain why) was going out of him and can`t talk, so was doing everything to look like a person, that really don`t see him. But we talk, because it was my house, and hi was a guest, but it was his idea, and talk just while I was goind to show him a water.
When my mum esked me, why didn`t talk to him, but always was going out of him I said, that HE is a boy and must do it. And his mother (we loves each other a lot) said, that he was shoked (in russian - afigel), caese... we saw each other 9 years ago, he was 16, we was in Turkey together. And I... was always wants to see him too. I mentioned, that he changed a little bit, just become older and looks like a...man)

So...
When I desided to go here, my parents had to bring me to Moscow, and he asked my father to let him do it by himself, has a VERY cool BIG black JEEP MERS, very-very cool and safe. And my parents look at me... I WAS VERY HAPPY, JUST LIKE TO JUMP, why? I know, that not becaese of car, caese me have a comfort one and... WHY?
I sait my parents, that he is juast going to Moscow to see his friends, and it was tru, but they smiled and say; `He said he can leave his work earlier...just to meet friends)` I said; `Mmm... but if he`d like to take me to the aiport he must do this, why wouldn`t he take me with him in case he will go to Moscow with or without me?` And father said; `Ugu... but we told him, that you needs to go at night, and he said he will come then at nine... go to meet friends at night, he`s always doing like this`
And he tired a lot, a sow it was really, but he was anly looking at `his team`if it is sleeping or not. And I fought he`ll fall a sleep just in the airport, but he was even joking and make me smiled.

So...
I don`t know what to do and what I must think about my and his feelings, I`m juast always thinking about it and him, and I don`t know, maybe I`d`like not to do it, because then I`m always feels meself very stupid cause I don`t now about... And what if just think about me like about a sister? But everybody tells me than in this case he wouldn`t have taken me to the airpor, but I don`t know


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